I wanna cry

Rasa macam nak scream at da top of my lungs.
i hate all this feeling
aku benci.
benci dgn orang.. yg tak pandai usaha..
like seriously.. kau hidup d dunia ne untuk apa?
haa?
cari la bha.. dua soalan ja kot lagi...
aku tau.. aku paham penat nak buat bendalah on9 tu.. tp..
bole ka , tanya bagus2.. kau ingat apa aku ne, 24/7 ka study?
i have other obligatory things to do...
jadi jangan push aku boleh?
ramai lagi kan yg ada.. tanya la dorg juga.. kenapa mesti aku..

OVER THE EDGE

Seriously, i am over the edge.
i dont know why i am revolving around dis people..
aku ndak pernah jumpa orang2 macam ne
what is wrong with u guys?
like seriously...
selama ne kau hidup macam mana dengan kawan2 mu?
entahlah..nasib aku ada kawan yg aku percaya
ada kakak2 yg aku senang n dorg pun sayang sama kami..
kalau ndak, boleh stress sendiri bha bilang
kau cakap macam tu tapi makan kau balik..
makan balik apa yang kau muntahkan..
kalau aku x puas hati aku diam ja.. kau x puas hati kau bole pula bgtahu org kan!
public lagi tu....
x guna.. serius.. kalau aku org nya, cakap bha ma aku..
biar aku nangis sendiri
biar aku nangis bersebab
jangan buat org tertanya2..
macam fitnah.. tp bukan fitnah
entah la.. aku benci keadaan ne
kau... nasib kau pernah buat baik sekali sama aku... tp satu tu ja la..
aku da x nampak kau mcm dulu lg
sorryla.. respect is down to zero.

wanna hear me?
i have been here for 3 month... n i tell u it aint silver and gold
aku.. rasa... ntah
first time.. jadi pendiam...
first time.. x gaul sgt dgn org
i just don fit in with them
i have one best buddy here, alhamdulillah..
n i have 4 sisters from sarawak yg sgt caring

bukan dorg x baik.. dorg baik.. cuma aku x dpt masuk dgn dorg..
and.. i received this whole thingy of
"awak kan pandai"

first of all.. aku x pandai...
aku.. usaha...
isn that what we all suppose to do?
you all lg pandai dari aku...

aku cuma usaha.. dan alhamdulillah apa yg aku usahakan mbuahkan hasil dgn izin ALLAH...
dont expect anything from me..
bila2 masa aku boleh jatuh
u can say all that tp jgn depan aku...
aku.. x mau.. x sukaaaaa

kesedihan? keterkilanan?

Terkilan. Ya,mungkin.
Sebab pertama kali jumpa orang macam ne.
How can you be two-faced in such a small community
How could you select your friend?
thats why sederhana is everything.
I hate this feeling

CHECKLIST ( in brief)

PTPTN ON9  ( in progress, sikit ja lg mo lengkapkan, alhamdulillah)
COPY2 DOKUMEN (in progress, mama tolong buat d pejabat)
PACKING untuk fly ( Baju kurung n tudung sudah ^^)
CLEAN UP FOR RAYA (Belum!!!!!!) i am so dead T.T

Kayh tu checklist. Now my merepek part. Nervous. Sbb kemungkinan besar sem 1 ku ada subjek:

Foundation in Applied Math 
General Chemistry

Siapa rapat ma aku sungguh tahu tahap IQ aku untuk M3 tahap mana. Simple math pun aku stutter apatah lagi applied math. Tapi, for the sake of learning, kali ni aku kena juga motivate diri. InsyaALLAH dipermudahkan. Amiiin~

General Chem pula, sbb aku ada masalah mo lekatkan dlm otak. Hmm.. kali dulu sbb aku kurg baik dgn cikgu.. maafkan saya cikgu. Jadi, kena fokus n mohon mudah untuk faham dan ingat, dengan izin ALLAH S.W.T segalanya boleh.

Hehee~ apa mimpi aku ne, dpt laptop terus mahu post macam2 entri kan? hehee~ asika? asi bha kan~

PAPAY OLD BLOG, HAI YOU (THIS BLOG)

Assalamualaikum n greetings to whoever reads this post.
It really has been a while, long while actually since my last blogging blogging poking poking ( eh lagu AA)
kay abaikan iklan lagu tu kayh.
after taking things into consideration, i decided to let my old blogs private to myself.
Coz i am too sayang to delete it but too embarrassed to publicised it.
Yala, blog lama tu banyak gambar, eventhough  xda la controversial pictures, tapi, err.. u got my point right?
Blog yg ne simple ja. Tajuk blog pun

"WHEN MY FINGERS SPEAKS FOR MY MIND.."

So mostly i only include writing, and maybe some pictures (kalau rajin). Hehee... Blog ni pun, xda org tau sgt mungkin. Aku bagitahu certain people ja, yg mungkin mahu tahu updates aku, tp x la semua.. cousin, Reena..

p/s: terharu bila Reena tanya bila lg mahu update blog. ada org kittari-jo  rupanya.

Oya, for the time being, aku dgn cold heartednya telah deactivate twitter lama. Twitter baru ada, tp biarlah rahsia. Aish, semuala mau rahsia Ila bagus ko nda payah buat. Heee~ entah. I just need to get out from the twitter life for now. Ada la beberapa reason, even x kukuh, tp... ya lah. hehuuu..

Ada org ckp, "ala x mati pun lau xda twitter". memang la tak mati unless twitter tu boleh shoot laserbeam ka dari screen laptop or hanphone/tablet tu mang nak ma**. kay joking2.
So, aku, ada d blog, Facebook, n Instagram. Okay?

Aku update ne sbb baru skrg dpt laptop. I mean, ada laptop d rumah. Sbb laptop gue udah d rompak makanya gue lg nggak punya laptop bikin hupdate blog segala. Justeru hanya mampu meminjam laptop mama n dipakai ketika malam/pagi yg hening mcm ne. kekeke~

So, thats all, i guess. For brief goodbye to blog lama.

TO 0711 SPM LEAVERS"

Assalamualaikum and happy day u guys!

Well, the upcoming result is really just around the corner, i'm sure all of you will be anxious for your result,

well, not only you, your parents also are really nervous for you guys..

Well, whatever the result is, accept it whole heartedly. You had done your best, right?

So, whatever happen, be grateful to ALLAH S.W.T, ALLAH knows what's best for each and everyone of us.

And, don't forget to carefully choose your pathway after you got the result

Whether you wanna go to Matriculation , Asasi, STPM, IPG, Poli, Diploma, SPA and etc, it is now up to you. And, don't forget to discuss it with your parents. Sometimes, parents knows what is best for you, but do consider your own interest, alright?

Don't be dissappointed if your result is not great as you had anticipated, there's always room for improvement if we are still alive. Its the same with our deeds, the more we do good things and follow the rules of ALLAH S.W.T, InsyaALLAH our iman will also increase. We will be acknowledged for what we did. So, keep studying, strive to be excellent.

" Mungkin kita x berjaya masa SPM, tapi siapa tau kita dapat 4flat nanti tym di matrix and etc?"

There are many living proof based on the statement above. So, don't lose heart okayh!

ANd, if anyone of u guys are interested in going to ASASI SAINS UITM PUNCAK ALAM, you can always ask me anything! =)

tanya ja di fb ka, sms ka, telefon ka, insyaALLAH i will reply it. Trust me, if you know how to live here, insyaALLAH senang lah proses pembelajaran.... serius.. PUNCAK ALAM ne best.

Kalau ada berminat, don't be afraid or shy shy cat to ask, arasso?

Akhir kata, GOOD LUCK! I always hope the best for my juniors2 yang cute miut neyh, n lau dapat result t inform2 la ya. (^_^)